First of all, that day unplanned
He came and knocked, 
And we all laughed.

He played their game, 
While finding his fame, 
Me, did he entertain.

Rubbed my finger on his knee,
Squirmed and wiggle; oh, did he,
And so much joy did it give me.

Sandman's trusty trick troped well,
Helped them escape to the playgrounds swell;
And proceed to crack, as blood fell.

First he started, of all the things,
I pursued his gentle words
They were there too, a friend he brings
Types of kisses, forming cords.

He was the first of all others,
Now not the Only one.
The time interrupted did occur
Finished the game, one and done.

The memory still burns,
And is re-liven all day.
With the hope,
That it will occur once again.

First, of all; of oh, so many.
Fondly remembered, fully awoken.
The burn yearns even now,
Ten long years of my life, have been re-found.

As one sleeps ever so peacefully,
One comes across a wide pond
That pulses mystically;
somehow creating a fear bond.

In a flash, tides pull inwardly;
like a typhoon,
Pulling the water glowingly
It is all sucked in so soon.

Water spinning, air is twirling, circle steady,
The big leaves fall, yet ....!
As eight-legged beings go down dancing,
A rhythm is formed, uniform and steadily.

Moving now, a hexagon bounces,
the sight! The Seriousness!
The GO-moment as they do raise
Base down, ass up, and here it goes.

It goes blank,
it goes dark,
It then comes back to you,
A world portal-ed, lit with new hues.

Invincibility is a trait, a sign, a gift.
Just like that of hazel eyes, peace, and family.
That of which leaves you bit by bit,
And leaves this feeling; sad merrily.

A tear for a friend is honorable.
And beauty is always known deep within,
A joke is understandable,
To see the truth that isn't thin.

Invisibility, you who is felt by all and is no one,
Can't be seen or touched or heard.
Yet here and there, we can feel you
Only those select few feared.

You, who has never left my side,
Only I can see you two
Loneliness made me a bride
While Invincibility kept me on the side of true

I've felt, I must admit, so done
In! For some, few years, means bullied,
Lull-lied into some sense of ...of dissertation!
You leave me now and I feel bare, gone lie.

Ill miss the "gifts" you bestowed upon me
Unseen, barely heard, but totally fair.
The art of blending, defeated the foe;
There was some pain, mostly observed, go.
I'm ready now, as so rumored the air;
To ask now: leave me be.

All around I see,
All sorts of happiness and smiles,
And though I should be happy;
I just cant catch up to those miles.

The green, the red the merrily
All are signs of such great things.
And normally my life would be
Just oh so filled with bliss.

Just last year I was content,
Now this 20 and 15 just feels like a miss.
How can it be that it sucked so hard?
All year round it drained all bliss.

Now I see the difference.
Last year we had so many presents,
And it's not about that of course,
But last year I just gave so much more.

I look around and I see couples
Lovey dovey as they should be,
But there in lies my question again
When will that be me?
This year just so many things went wrong
And though around this time its not about looking down.
I should look up,
I want to look up
But this year just held me down.

I felt a despair,
A pain in my heart,
Something no one could fix.
With a relative missing
It just couldn't be, it was jinxed

It did not feel like Christmas,
It felt much worse.
A day to buy things,
Instead it was just buying yourself.

I feel down and cant sleep.
And all I can think, is 
Please 20 and 16
Grant me this bliss.

I…am angry. So angry that it hurts
My heart, oh so much.
What you say can not fix this,
What you do can not stop, t’is
A feeling you have brought.
There is nothing you can do,
Because all the words you say are hollowed thru…!
My heart and soul brake piece by piece.
So advice let me give to thee.
Better, much better than a thousand hollow words such as these…
Is but one, just one word that brings me peace.
For me that word is no,
For no I will not, go back to your indiscretions…foe!
For you that word should be fine,
Yet you claim that your word is mine.
For I am yours, my master you claim
This time, no matter what your aim
No matter what you say or do
I can guarantee that nothing can be sung ado
No matter what I…am done!

Its bad, its wrong, its hurtful,
No matter what the gender.
But what indeed, such acts as these,
Means to cheat?
To like. So simple a concept.
To flirt, to want, to sex, to love
These main four, are Cheating’s worse.
But nice is fine for all must treat
As if they were all so neat.
To not say something has happened between you two
Is a lie.
And to mention nothing great is untrue
Because cheating is keeping something from your lovers truth.
And when things are brought and truth unfold
Will you still cover your folly?
Do you not understand the suffering body?
If truth is what you wish, not us
Then truth like always will be just
So emplore I must,
And say just this…
That Cheaters Lust
Is a gamer’s sin.

I am invisible.
It is inevitable,
That life is harsh.
And death, is freedom.
Existence is meaningless when
The social classes do ignore,
What can someone do?
Nothing, nothing of course.
Live life as invisible as you want.
But know that your invisibility is their just.
For them you doing your best,
Is what makes you seem less.
You try day in and day out, 
And never further can you stride;
Yet hopefuls lie.
You are truly hopeful when you change,
Your routine, your journey, your days.
Stray away from that folly
Do not give those cats your money!
Be invisible, truly.
It is oh so liberating.
Realize and awake the masses.
For only then can you truly be happy.
Awake from yonder sleep,
Quit being defined by them,
Create your version of invisibility
And sneak up right behind them.
Take what is yours, be who you are
Only then will this land be ours!
Be invisible, it's a just cause.

I hid from my eiry past,
I'm scared of the unknown future.
My sacred present is moving too pass
And these moments are just murder.

I wish not to dwell in things long due,
But this battle of history and unpredictability is a huge feud!
I try to make sure I see the unknown,
I have learned, but this has not shown.

The things I should do, I don't.
And others, I try not to and say I wont,
They say do not dwell in the past, 
Because then the present will not last.
Then they say do not dream of the future,
Maybe I'm just too immature.

My only sweet salvation is two,
I must concentrate my mind
For it wonders to and fro,
On the present moment that binds
My ever so changing pose.

This whole body is to be me.
How bad the past may be
I can not stop that it was,
And always served a just cause
Though I wish to forget and not dream, 
I will simply accomplish what I can reach.